Help Please!

Well, the clutch to my car is completely OUT! :( I was just on the phone with my dad and the dealership said it would be about $2400 to replace it and it wouldn't be done by Friday. This is very bad news considering I need to leave by Saturday and the very latest and there's not enough room in the other car heading back to Montana for all of us to fit. This means that I need nothing short of a miracle to get back to school to finish out the last three months of the year. Disappointing and pretty scary right now.
God, I pray that you would give me peace in this situation. That you would provide me with the $2400 and provide a way for me to get back to school. I ask that you would just work a miracle in this. Thank you so much that you are ALWAYS in control and that you saw this coming before I ever did. God you are so good and I declare that out right now. Please have your way in this situation. Amen.

"Wait, wait! I changed my mind!"

Do you ever have one of those days where you wish you could undo everything? The things you say, the things you do...everything! Today I was working on my BRI - Basic Required Information, for SBS and as I hit save I realized I saved it under my template I use for all the OT books. Ok, no problem, this happens ALL THE TIME. So I begin to erase it all and then I saved it under the right name. Crap...then I just had a confusing moment of I don't know what I'm doing!!! And lost my entire BRI. :( I thought about how nice it would be to have an "I'm an idiot, forget everything I just did" button. :/ Oh well, maybe I'll send my idea into HP or Mac and see what they think. ;)

Extravagant

Your love is extravagant. Your friendship, it is intimate
I feel I'm moving to the rhythm of your grace
Your fragrance is intoxicating in the secret place
Your love is extravagant

Spread wide in the arms of Christ is a love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known that you consider me your friend
Capture my heart again

Yesterday I was talking with my older brother and just was having a hard time. He is going through a divorce with his wife of five years and three children (all under the age of four). It's so hard to see the people you love go through hard times like this. It's hard to see the other person you love choosing to live their life as they are. I talked with him last night and woke up this morning just sad thinking about it. I know that God is in control, I have seen that time and again in my own life and in the lives of others. But sometimes it's so hard to see when you are going through the process. There are times where I think it would be so easy to let go, and other times where I just want to hold on to the hope that they will get back together. What do you do with that? Is it safe to hold on, or do you just let go? And when you find out what to do for yourself, what do you tell other people?
Something that I think is so easy to forget is that we're not supposed to hold on to anything with a closed fist. God's desire for us as his children is to always leave our hands open so that he can pour into it and fill us up and that it would overflow into the lives of those around us. That's not to say don't fight for your marriage or for your children, but don't fight alone. Don't keep those you hold so dear away from the Lord because then you are fighting without a cause. But let God be the one to fight your battles. He is the one who goes before you, goes behind you, and comes alongside you during the hard times. He is always there and always will be there.

Lord Jesus, please help me to let go. Give me the strength I need to be weak so that you would receive all the glory and honor when I am victorious in all of the challenges I face. I don't know what that looks like all the time, but you do. Thank you so much that you are and always have been in control and that you take me along on this adventure called life. I never have to walk it alone because you are always with me. I love you so much, Jesus. Would you be glorified in this situation with Isaac and Katie and would you be the center.

Scrapbooking?

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Passion

I just spent the last two and a half (or three) hours talking about God. My mouth is dry from my conversations with the two individual people I spoke with. I love that! I realized my passion really is in the Lord. I was talking with someone I hardly know about what a blessing the last six months have been for me to be completely absorbed in God's Word. The more I think about it the more I realize what a privilege it has truly been to take nine months of my life and study the Bible like I never have before. Less than 10% of Christians actually take the time to study the Bible, let alone read it. I have been able to take the opportunity that many people around the world will never get in their lifetime. How blessed am I! Honestly, God makes me come alive. He really is Life - he is the Creator of life and all things good. I can't picture where I would be if I had not been found by him and transformed through his amazing grace.
The other conversation I had involved just thinking about how other people miss out on this grace. I don't know why one wouldn't agree to this crazy adventure called life with the Author of it all. It's amazing how God just knits stories together; it's like a puzzle when people meet and find out what piece of the puzzle they are.
I don't know, for as hard as life seems sometimes, it's so wonderful. I'm really enjoying each part of it - the falling down, standing back up, learning lessons, making friends, finding out who you are... It's like there is always something new to experience.

Today I was just sitting in my dorm room thinking about God. It's so sad to me how he just gets brushed under the carpet so much - even in my own life. I'm in Bible school for crying out loud and I always am making up some excuse as to why I'm too busy to have a quiet time or just pray. He is the whole point of why I'm here, yet it's so easy to make him the last thing I check on my "to do list." Lame! God is so worthy of everything I have! I want to spend so much time with Jesus that when I pass away the only thing that people will be able to say of me is, "Jesus was evident in everything she said and did. She loved God first, others second, and herself last."
I was so excited today because I was just able to turn on some worship music and just dance. I miss that! In every move I did I felt God moving with me. Isn't that how it's supposed to be? God is supposed to be the center of our lives. He wants to move with us in everything we do. He wants to be involved in every decision we make and thing we say. God wants to play with us, work with us, relax with us... There is not one thing that God doesn't want to be involved in. Jesus, I pray that you would always remind me to involve you with every part of my life. I don't want to exclude you from anything, Lord. Come be the venter of my life.